370: Ashes and snow ianuarie 12, 2010

ashes and snow

if you come to me at this moment, your minutes will become hours, your hours will become days and your days will become a lifetime.

ever since my house burnt down, i see the moon more clearly.
i gazed upon all the Edens that have fallen in me, i saw Edens that i had held in my hands but let go, i saw promises i did not keep, pains i did not throw, wounds i did not heal, tears i did not share.
i saw deaths i did not mourn, prayers i did not answer, doors i did not open, doors i did not close, lovers i left behind, and dreams i did not live.
i saw all that was offered to me that i could not accept.
i saw the letters i wished for but never received.
i saw all that could have been but never will be.

remember your dreams, remember your dreams, remember.

my heart is like an old house whose windows have not been opened for years, but now i hear the windows opening.

an elephant with his trunk raised is a ladder to the stars. / a breaching whale is a ladder to the bottom of the sea. / my photographs are a ladder to my dreams. / these letters are ladders to you

ashes and snow

by gregory colbert

371: awake ianuarie 12, 2010

Walking like a one man army, fighting with the shadows in your head. Living out the same old moment knowing you’d be better off instead if you could only… Say what you need to say. Even if your hands are shaking and your faith is broken, even as the eyes are closing do it with a heart wide open. Say what you need to say.

—This town is colder now, I think it’s sick of us. It’s time to make our move, I’m shaking off the rust. I’ve got my heart set on anywhere but here. I’m staring down myself, counting up the years. Stop and stare. I think I’m moving but I go nowhere. Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared but I’ve become what I can’t be.

—Sin, sin, sin. Look where we’ve been and where we are tonight. Hate the sin not the sinner. I’m just after a glimmer of love and light deep inside.

—Or I should I just get along with myself; I never did get along with everybody else. I’ve been trying hard to do what’s right but you know I could stay here all night and watch the clouds fall from the sky. This river is wild.

—I have arrived and this time you should believe the hype. I listened to everyone now I know that everyone was right. I’ll be there for you as long as it works for me. I play a game, it’s called insincerity.

—That’s me in the corner, that’s me in the spotlight; I’m losing my religion trying to keep up with you. And I don’t know if I can do it. Oh no, I’ve said too much; i haven’t said enough.

—And no one learned from your mistakes. We let our profits go to waste. All that’s left, in any case, is advertising space.

—All I know is everything is not as it’s sold; but the more I grow the less I know. And I have lived so many lives though I’m not old. And the more I see, the less I grow, the fewer the seeds the more I sow.

—Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes, like they have any right at all to criticize. Hypocrites, you’re all here for the very same reason. ‘Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable and life’s like an hourglass glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button, girl so cradle your head in your hands and breathe… just breathe.

372: ce-am invatat azi (sambata) ianuarie 8, 2010

cand esti  in procesul de renuntat la tigari si ti se face pofta de-o tigara, ia o gura de aer si bea un pahar cu apa ! e echivalentul unui fum plus cateva luni de viata!

373: ce-am invatat azi (vineri) ianuarie 8, 2010

ca oamenii faini intalnesc oameni faini si ca suntem ceea ce suntem din cauza oamenilor care au trecut, chiar si pret de-o tigara prin viata noastra!

374:de an nou ianuarie 7, 2010

2010: m-a cam luat pe nepregatite. ma asteptam la ceva mai mult entuziasm si pofta de viata, dar vacanta a fost ca o sampanie agitata prea mult si m-a scurs de energie. deci, 2010: hmmm…ma emotionez la gandul ca anul asta e un an decisiv. ori ne luam zborul, ori imbatranim pe  vecie pe a nostra glie. eu zic sa nu! ca avem atatea de aratat si de vazut in intreaga lume.

si ca sa fiu succinta, caci Universului ii place viteza, m-am gandit sa comand si eu ceva pentru 2010, asa sa ramana scris, sa nu zici ca nu ti-am zis:

creativitate : imaginatie : dragoste : soare : apa : sex : sex de calitate : petreceri reusite si alcool fara mahmureli : carti buuune : ciocolata : Paris : DisneyLand : Portugalia : Cannon : Scoala de Soferi : Parasutism : master : limbi straine(  portugheza, spaniola, italiana) : did i said sex?  : nisip cat cuprinde : Salitos : piersici si palmieri : fara complicatii : prieteni cat cuprinde (aceeasi, altii, multi, navalnici, geniali, persoane noi si interesante) : credinta : credinta si putere : lumina : yoga : budism : apa (in toate formele ei posibile) : acceptare : rabdare : indemanare : retete misto de gatit : fara timpi morti : (repet!) FARA arogante, fite, timpi morti, abureli sau barfe : concentrare : prioritati : animale (eventual un bichon alb) : fotografie, blogging, stiri marfa : fitness : high hells and short dresses : red hair and green eyes : acceptare inca o data : tatuaj : tantrism si exoterism : carti, ziare, albume, cafea neagra fara zahar :  ceata :   cafea FARA tigari : vicii constant anihilate : haos : reorganizare : schimbare : tanjiri : modelare : briza marii : muzica buna : concerte : tipete : baloane : fructe proaspete : matase : parfum : eliberare : aruncat lucruri vechi : cadouri cat cuprinde  :  share love : iubire iubire : hugs : smiles :):) : kisses : laugh !

375:fail, baby||! decembrie 14, 2009

So fail. Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be afraid. Be vulnerable. Go out on a limb or two or twelve, & you will fall & it’ll hurt. But the harder you fall, the farther you will rise. The louder you fail, the clearer your future becomes. Failure is a gift, welcome it. There are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became, how certain chances passed them by, why they didn’t take the road less traveled Those people aren’t you. You have front row seats to your own transformation, & in transforming yourself, you might even transform the world. & it will be electric, & I promise you it will be terrifying. Embrace that; embrace the new person you’re becoming. This is your moment. I promise you, it is now, now, not two minutes from now, not tomorrow, but really now Own that; know that deep in your bones. & go to sleep every night knowing that, wake up every morning remembering that. & then…keep going.

376: awareness: how to do decembrie 9, 2009

1. Be aware of what you believe.

2. Be aware that it is easy to be wrong.

3. Be aware of your feelings and thoughts.

4. Be aware that we all need little reminders sometimes.

5. Be aware of everyday miracles.

6. Be aware of how you present yourself.

7. Be aware of how your actions impact others.

8. Be aware of how your actions affect yourself.

9. Be aware of how powerful small things can be.

10. Be aware of this moment.

11. Be aware of who you are becoming.

377: do YOU speak Earth ? decembrie 1, 2009

UN Climate Change Conference (COP15) Decembrie…

…it is more important than ever that people around the world take a stand against climate change. i speak earth is a simple but vital declaration to your friends, family and peers that you care about the future of our planet.

i speak earth is a badge; a statement to world leaders that you want to see action, not talk.

Declare that you speak earth, share this message and recruit friends. Together we will demand that world leaders take action in Copenhagen for our planet.

378: Snowboard evolution noiembrie 20, 2009

379: mitologii amanate noiembrie 19, 2009

nimeni nu ar fi putut s-o zica mai frumos.